Saturday, December 27, 2014

Walking Challenge Final Results (Two months late!)

-The distance from home to Crowley's Ridge National Park is 849 miles.
-The distance from there to Devil's Den State Park is 215 miles.
-My total goal distance is then 1,064 miles.
-Challenge runs from January 1st thru October 31st, which is 304 days.
-That means... I need to cover 3.5 miles per day to achieve my goal distance.
-Of that 3.5 miles, only half (1.75 miles) can come from my everyday normal walking!

The Road So Far.....

January
Goal: 108.5 miles
Distance: 79.79 miles
Deficit: -28.71 miles

February
Goal: 98 miles
Distance: 88.16 miles
Deficit: -9.84 miles

March
Goal: 108.5 miles
Distance: 111.34 miles
Deficit: +2.84 miles

April
Goal: 105 miles
Distance: 184.73 miles
Deficit: +79.73 miles

May
Goal: 108.50 miles
Distance: 77.11 miles
Deficit: -31.39 miles

June
Goal: 105 miles
Distance: 51.78 miles
Deficit: -53.22 miles

July
Goal: 108.5 miles
Distance: 77.30 miles
Deficit: -31.20 miles

August
Goal: 105 miles
Distance: 92.03 miles
Deficit: -12.97 miles

September & October (The final months)
Goal: 213.50 miles
Distance: 170.42 miles
Deficit: -43.08


Final Numbers.......

Overall Distance Goal:: 1064 miles

Overall Distance Travelled:: 932.66 miles

Overall Deficit:: -131.34 miles short


To say I'm disappointed is an understatement, but then again I got out what I put in, and that was not much. To know I only missed it by 131 miles though, it feels like a shame. I don't think we have a challenge in place for 2015, at least not a walking challenge one. I was trying to get something together to spark some jazz back into our fitness routine, but I just won't have the time to commit with school and work. I have 4 classes for the Spring, all at inconvenient times, so my work schedule might get a little crazy. Or a lot crazy. Probably the latter.


So, here is my final map for this challenge. I had tons of fun, and hope to be able to do something like this for 2015, but we'll see.




So close!!! :-(


Be happy, be healthy, be you!




Friday, October 3, 2014

Weekly Motivational #7

Just a quick one for you all today.

I quit my old gym, which had a free weights section that was always crawling with body-builders... you know, the ones who lift way more weight than they should, get it to their kneecaps, drop it, then scream and make the Hulk pose. Needless to say, I felt uncomfortable venturing into No-Neck-Land.

I joined a new gym, Planet Fitness, and it is exactly what I need in a gym. No classes, no kids care section (which means no one bringing their bratty kids with them and they screaming the whole time), and the best part is, they have a zero-tolerance for the extreme body-builders' behaviors like I mentioned above.

So, my motivational this week is simply to get back to it! Pick up that old habit (a GOOD one of course!), and get back into routine of being better for yourself. Don't do it for anyone else but you, and make YOU a priority!!

<3


Sunday, September 28, 2014

Sunday Night Musings

So, it has been a week or so since my last post. Friday was not a day of triumph for me, in fact it was quite the opposite. Murphy smacked me hard with his law and everything in my life seemed to have gone wrong that day. I spent the majority of it crying. Not just crying, but sobbing. And then of course my inner critic came by for a visit to kick me while I was down, and it was just a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day!

But, the weekend has progressed. It is Sunday night, today was my day off, and I go back in to work at 7AM tomorrow morning.

I made a delicious dinner tonight. My first since I dropped John off at the airport on Thursday (He's gone until the 5th!). I had a fillet of tilapia, some sauteed spinach, and a veggie-stuffed green pepper. Lots of veggies (probably three servings!) and some good proteins to boot. For having to make dinner alone, and do the clean-up, and the dishes, and the putting away of ingredients and leftovers, I must say I am still a fan of eating at home rather than eating out. I can have seconds, I can have less spinach and more fish if I want, and best of all, I know where my food came from!

Last night I met up with some gym bunny friends and my Zumba instructor, Johnny, to celebrate his birthday. The rest of the gang went off dancing at a Latin club afterwards, but I was so tired having worked that morning that I just came home and passed out. It was a nice time. One of the girls there is an instructor where my mother-in-law goes (a cardio club) and she is super sweet. I imagine we could be friends if I had time to make and maintain a friendship. I ordered a chicken cesar salad, and felt ashamed when I looked up and everyone else who ordered a salad stopped halfway through their bowl and was "stuffed". Being the biggest at the table, I know I should not feel guilty for finishing a fucking entree salad, but I did. So, I didn't finish it. I left 5 or 6 bites on it, and watched it get taken away to be thrown away. \sigh

This morning Julie and I went to breakfast, and we had omelettes and then ran around to Target and some other stores. We always have a nice time, and I don't feel like "the wife" when I'm with her (like some in-laws make their child's spouse feel). We had fun, we laughed, we tried weird clothes on (well I did because with her I have no shame!). We also stopped in to Planet Fitness, to look and see if that gym would be a good fit for us. Julie is tired of only going to a few zumba classes a week at her cardio club, and I feel like the gym I go to is catered to juicers and cliques of girls in yoga pants. When I go to use the free weights I feel the neckless 'roiders staring down at me, and when I try a new class I feel like the group of girls who suck up to the instructor are whispering about me as I walk by to find a spot in the back. With Planet Fitness, they are big on being a "JUDGEMENT FREE ZONE" and even have a working "Lunk Alarm" when people are being mindless lift machines. It has a ton of treadmills, ellipticals, arc trainers, and bikes, plus machines and even a small free weight area, free of huge weights and deadlift machines. We are considering joining. Julie has already put in her notice at her club, and tomorrow I go in to cancel my current membership. Overall, it was a good day. I came home and buckled down, got some homework done, and then made dinner, and a cup of coffee afterwards. Now, I should be getting back to homework, but I just felt like sharing my normal day with you two or three people who read this.


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Friday, September 12, 2014

Weekly Motivational #6

TGIF!

What a week. Back to school routine has gotten off to a rough start, and my work schedule, as nice as it's been, is now a full-time schedule and closing me in on 40 hours every week. I am glad to have the full-time benefits and pay (no pay increase, Thanks Obama!), but of course that does mean I actually have to show up 5 days a week instead of 4, and work full days instead of the 4 hour shifts I once got. I'm thankful to have a job, anyway.

There is lots of excitement going on next month, so I am preparing myself mentally for it this month. As you might have read from my July/August Road Trip Update, I am so far behind in the challenge that I need to make about 5 miles per day in September and October just to complete this and make it to the finish line! I am not one to quit, nor am I one to give up, so I will bust my ass any way I can to do this. Although it is not life or death, I tend to dramatize things and think that this is that type of situation, and this "time crunch" I feel just might be what I need to get my ass in gear to complete this.

And so, on to the weekly motivational. This week, I had a lot to learn about communication. Anyone who knows me, knows that I am a talker, and do so loudly, proudly, and with lots of hand gestures. It occurred to me that in the interest of my sanity, my health, my marriage, and my life in general, that it may be time to shut up more often to truly listen to the world around me. I might be gabbing away and miss an important opportunity in my life, or I might mishear something that just may be crucial to understanding the person I am talking to, or maybe something truly beautiful is happening and I'm too busy talking to be an observer in the event.

So I ask you, how often do you stop talking and truly listen? Maybe not listening to words, but tone of voice, emotions, maybe just standing outside and listening to the sounds all around you? You might miss some beautiful sounds. Hearing my nephew's laughter tonight made my heart ache with how little I see him and how fast he's growing.

To make my point, I could be talking out loud to myself right now as I type this, which is something I do (I have a lot on my mind and talking out loud gets it off my chest even if John's not around to hear it!) Instead, I am quiet. I am listening to the clicks of my fingers on the keyboard. I am a fast, although not perfect typist. I am listening to the fan do its weird clicky thing, and now have another item for my Sunday honey-do list: dust the fan!

But, the most beautiful sound of all right now, is the sound of my car purring away next to me. And it's not a soft, pretty, purr; No, Patrice purrs so intensely it sounds like he is trying to start a lawnmower! And it is the most perfect sound I could hear right now. It means I am a good caretaker, that he loves me, and this sound can make even my darkest day a little brighter. When my grandmother passed away in December, Patrice was there to comfort me the only way he knew how. He laid on my chest, buried his head under my chin into my neck, and purred that heavy, deep purr until I had no more cry left in me. It was therapy. Patrice knows what I need, when I need it. Damn I love this cat!



Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Road Trip Review : July & August Two-Fer!

Well, July came and went, August ran past me without so much as a hello, and here we are in the second week of September. What a year it has been!!! Did you know there are only 11 weeks until Thanksgiving? 15 until Christmas????? FFFUUUUUUUUUUU....... I'd better start shopping now!

So, of course, I've set myself up for failure again. I did not lose the 5 lbs at the end of August that I wanted to, but I came close. 3lbs actually. And that's better than nothing. [Insert mini celebration here].

I have gotten full swing into my full time job, and full time school, and I feel like I have very little time to see my husband. So much so that when I do see him, it's as we turn in for the night or him being the awesome man he is and making me lunch in the early morning when I'm still a zombie before he heads out the door for work before me. What a man! /Swoon

So, let's review..

-The distance from home to Crowley's Ridge National Park is 849 miles.
-The distance from there to Devil's Den State Park is 215 miles.
-My total goal distance is then 1,064 miles.
-Challenge runs from January 1st thru October 31st, which is 304 days.
-That means... I need to cover 3.5 miles per day to achieve my goal distance.
-Of that 3.5 miles, only half (1.75 miles) can come from my everyday normal walking!

The Road So Far.....

January
Goal: 108.5 miles
Distance: 79.79 miles
Deficit: -28.71 miles

February
Goal: 98 miles
Distance: 88.16 miles
Deficit: -9.84 miles

March
Goal: 108.5 miles
Distance: 111.34 miles
Deficit: +2.84 miles

April
Goal: 105 miles
Distance: 184.73 miles
Deficit: +79.73 miles

May
Goal: 108.50 miles
Distance: 77.11 miles
Deficit: -31.39 miles

June
Goal: 105 miles
Distance: 51.78 miles
Deficit: -53.22 miles

July
Goal: 108.5 miles
Distance: 77.30 miles
Deficit: -31.20 miles

August
Goal: 105 miles
Distance: 92.03 miles
Deficit: -12.97 miles

So, I should be at 847 miles.

I am currently at 762.24 miles.

I am down -84.76 miles. Ouchies.

Now, looking at what's left on our journey, From September 1st until October 31st there are 61 days.

I am 308.76 miles short of my final destination.

So....to meet my goal, I need to do around 5.06 miles from now until the end of the challenge.

YIKES!!!! I'd better get my ass in gear.

And, the special prize for tonight..... I actually updated and took pictures of my map!!!! MUAHAAHAHAH!!

All of the dark red pins are progress made but monthly goal not hit. The green dots are monthly goals made. Wow.... that's a lot of red dots.... (to be fair the 2 even ones on top are my destination dots....)

Go bug Amy and tell her to get her ass in gear too. We are struggling this year, and we need some motivation to keep going!!!!

Also, go like her Facebook Page!!!!

Saturday, August 23, 2014

Weekly Motivational #5

"Only You"

A day late, a dollar short. Seems to be the story of my life this week.

I'll keep this short. I have not moved since my last blog. I have not gone to the gym once, and I definitely haven't changed my eating habits. I haven't made any real excellent food choices, and I also don't feel any regret. I know that change begins with me.

Only You can decide when to start.

Only You can make you happy. 

Only You can make the changes you should.

Only You can decide not to give up.

It's up to me. My lack of motivation is no longer an excuse. A new semester of school has started, and with it I hope to start back on the bandwagon of the gym. If I can last 21 days, I can make it a habit. That's my plan.

I have set up mini goals for this week:
Immediate/Next couple of days - Get all of the "new semester" attendance verifications out of the way.
Soon/This week - Plan out my gym schedule for days I am on campus for class. Stick to that plan.
Make it happen/This month - Lose 5lbs before September begins.

So.... Only You can make the changes you need. What else are you waiting for?!?





Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Suicide, Cancer, and the Ultimate Question...

What a week it has been. Robin Williams, comedian extraordinaire, is dead. Current reports say he hung himself, and it is ruled a suicide. Having battled depression, he decided that he could no longer hold the pressures he felt, the black emptiness, the depression became too great.

I've said it on Facebook, I'll say it here. Suicide is not glamorous. It is not a glorified end to a sad life. Suicide is messy, it is devastating, and it leaves a whole lotta mess and shitstorms behind for your family and loved ones.

I am only in the beginning stages of my mental health career, and already I know there is so much I want to do when I am able to. I already have an idea on what to write my thesis on, if I want to pursue my doctorate.

Please, if you or someone you know is battling depression, don't treat them like a stigma. Depression is a disease, like anything else. Depression and other mental health issues don't affect one person, or any specific class, race, ethnicity, age, gender, sexual orientation, creed, or economic or social status. It does not discriminate, and neither should you. Depression does not make someone weak or soft, it does not discount who they are as a person, it does not make them any less valuable as a person. Depression ripples among the sufferer's friends, family, loved ones; you can hear it if you listen closely. So, if someone you know ever says anything about killing themselves, or the world being better off without them, or anything of that nature, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE call the

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
1-800-273-8255

It is toll-free, and confidential. You don't have to say your name, you don't have to say anything you don't want to. Just call. You might be the voice someone needs to speak up for them, to help them get the help they need.





Now.... the next item on my agenda. Cancer. Cancer sucks. It does. EXACTLY like mental illness and depression, cancer does not care who it affects. The ripples felt by cancer spread far and wide, through family, friends, and loved ones. It does not care if you are a mother, a devout Christian, it does not matter if you have been healthy all your life, or if you have a grandchild whom you won't get to see grow up. It ravages your body and mind, might make you question your faith and shake your foundation of life. 

That has been event #2 in my life this week. One of my aunts, who is all of those qualities above, went into the hospital super-sick, and was found to have an advanced breast cancer that has spread to her bones, liver, many lymph nodes, and possibly spread further. She goes into surgery tomorrow (Thursday), for what exactly I am unsure, as she is states away.

As someone who is Agnostic (look it up if you don't know what that means), I have long battled with the idea of a God who could let something like this happen. What angers me further... No, let me rephrase.... What PISSES ME OFF is that this God could let someone who is so devout find a lump in her breast MONTHS ago, but believed that the power of PRAY would make this go away. Well, Science-1, God-0. As expected, cancer left untreated very rarely goes away. When it does, it is hailed by both the medical and religious communities as a "miracle".

Science and religion share more qualities than you think. They are both based on history. Faith is based in a long history of belief systems that have been traditionalized and passed on for generations and hundreds of years. Science is much the same; it is based on a long history of tried and tested methods and hypotheses, tried and revised until they have found a system that works. Either way, they can fail you in the darkest of times. Science can fail the doctor to cure the cancer the rages on the inside if a body. Faith can fail the family who thought they were healthy and that prayer could make cancer disappear, but faith can also fail and make that family question their very faith. For the family of my Aunt, they are very devout and believe that God will perform miracles. And even if He doesn't, and my Aunt dies younger than she should have, I know that her family will continue to pray and be devout to God, because now she is with Him and her pain has been eased.

And here I am. Hundreds of miles away, and very pissed off. See, I do not know if I believe in God. Moreover, I do not know how so many can believe in some higher power who can let things like this happen, especially to a family who has never done harm to anyone. I don't understand how someone can keep their faith in time where science (to me) is their only answer and solution. I may never understand it. I was just telling my husband that I find it funny (not "ha-ha" funny, but ironic-funny) that so many people believe that God will cure her of cancer simply because they are praying for Him to do so. I want to reply to their posts with blasphemous scientific ramblings that shoots down the statistical probability of a "miracle", but that would mean condemning my Aunt to the cancer, and also interrupting their freedoms to believe in whatever they choose... So I keep my tongue in check. Obviously, I do not want to offend anyone. I know we all feel helpless to this, and I suppose the prayers are at least bringing comfort and showing my family that they are not alone, and that they are loved even from afar and in this time of need. 

No matter what you believe, no matter what craziness is going on in your life, no matter what your age, race, ethnicity, religion, gender, orientation, creed, or whatever, do not ignore a bump or foreign feeling in your body. Get that shit checked out. And don't just rely on the power of prayer or your God. Science was put here on this Earth to help everyone. Let it.

Do monthly self breast exams. Keep an eye on your freckles and birthmarks. If you suddenly find you are tired, or irritable, or something about your attitude has changed, go see your doctor. It could very well be stress, or situational, temporary.... but it could also be something else. If your family has a higher risk for any types of cancers or diseases, keep that shit in check. Know the risks. Get the tests. Trust the medicine.


So.... 
That leaves one last item of business... the Ultimate Question.

I suppose it ties in with the cancer issue, and also the issue of depression and mental health.


Does God exist?

Everybody is entitled to an answer, and no one's answer is wrong, even if it is "no". And God is being used as a general term, whether it be the Christian God, Pagan Gods and Goddesses, Vishnu, Shiva, or any other applicable "Supreme Being(s)" that a religion worships.

My answer is that I don't have an answer. I don't know. I find it hard to trust that God would let people suffer the way they do, that He would take our faith and shake it up and cause someone to turn away. But I also find it hard to believe that there is nothing beyond life. I suppose on the Eleventh Hour I will find out. I just hope my going is quick, or at least painless, and that by the time my number is called, physician-assisted suicide is legal and normal, because who wants to suffer for no reason other than to prolong life?

It's a lot to take in. It is a heavy fog that we are all in, and each of us has to have it within ourselves to find the strength, or call upon the strength, to continue on.

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Weekly Motivational #4

Do you ever have that "A-HA!" moment in your life where something that you did that NEVER made sense, finally makes sense?

I think I had a revelation like that over this past weekend. I have, for so long, been hiding behind time as an excuse for EVERYTHING, that I think it is finally working against me now. Time, that is.

"I work too many hours."

"I go to school AND work. I never have time for anything else."


"When I have a day off I have house-chores to do!"


"I don't get hardly any ME time, so my days off are for that!"


"There just isn't TIME to go to the gym!"

"I worked a long day YESTERDAY..... TODAY I am tired!"


.... I think I contradict myself many times, but the message is always the same: I'm not making the time because my priorities are not in line with what I think they are. I feel that fitness is a very high priority for me. But in reality... it's near the bottom. Food habits and determination to eat better seems like it's high on my list, but yet I have found myself reaching for the snack-sized Milky Ways in the pantry instead of the arm-length carrots.

And of course, week after week, I feel like a failure and a slob. I know what I did wrong, but yet I don't take responsibility for it. What the hell is wrong with me?


This Carl Jung quote hit home with me. I am lonely. I feel lonely. And it's because I have managed to push most of my friends away, or they have themselves moved on with the passing of time. Don't get me wrong. I love my besties to death, and in an instant I would drop what I am doing to help them with whatever they need.... but I am lonely in my day-to-day life. My besties are miles, and countries away. They do not call me at 5:15am to go running. They do not run on the treadmill next to me at the gym. They do not help me cook dinner and sit and eat a proper meal with me. Do you see what I am getting at? I am standing in a room full of people who love me and whom I love, and I'm screaming, yet I am not heard.

This feels less like a motivational post and is reading more like a pity party. For that I am sorry. My motivation this week is to curb the loneliness. Ask for the attention I want. Plead for the support I need. I am worthy of it all, and so are each one of my friends and loved ones. This week, I will not sit idly by and watch the world spin, I will go out and help make it spin faster and the sun burn brighter.



Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Deliciously Simple! Guacamole!

So, I had the munchies. John and I bought avocados last night at a buck a piece, and they were ripe and ready to go!

So, the only logical step for 6 avocados was a delicious guacamole dip!!

This delicious dip is simple to make, full of good fats, and is FREAKING WONDERFUL!

First up, half your avocados. Use a sharp blade and slice all the way around.
Twist each half away from each other and pull them apart. Using the base of the knife blade,
hit the pit, turn right and pull the pit up. It should come out easily.


Next, take your knife and slice the green goodness in cubes. Slice longways,
then slice again. Use a spoon to get the pulp out and into your bowl.


Delicious spices added to our dip. I used sea salt, black pepper,
garlic powder, and garlic sea salt. Sounds like overkill, yes, but the 
spices all meld together. One thing I forgot to take a pic of was the lime juice.
I used a whole lime, slightly smaller than my fist. (A trick: roll the lime before
cutting into it like clay. It loosens the juice!)


An action shot of my spices!


Chop the onion! I used about a half of a white onion.
I diced it up pretty good. I do not usually like large pieces of 
onion, so I dice it up nicely to about the size of a pinky nail.


Time to SMASHY SMASHY! If you are doing a small batch, use a large fork
and smash the chunks of avocado. In this case, with 6 avocados... I used a potato masher!
I like my dip a little chunkier than some, but you can smash it to whatever consistency you desire!
The finished product! Delicious and wonderful!


My secret weapon! Oregano! A tablespoon or a little less will do ya!


I am going to eat the crap outta this dip! I had some thyme/herb chips and I snacked a little bit before lunch!!! YUMMMMYYYY!!!

Friday, August 1, 2014

Weekly Motivational #3

Happy Friday to everyone! How was your week? I hope it was filled with little triumphs and met goals, sweat, fun, and some relaxation in there, too!

My husband was away again this week to Orlando. I spent the week watching Grey's Anatomy reruns on Netflix, watched half of the most recent season of Supernatural, watched a few movies, played some video games, and had landscapers come out and revamp my planters and start a weekly lawn-mowing service which we needed pretty badly.

Notice anything missing? Yup. I did not once hit the gym. Again. Another week, another failed attempt at getting myself back on that horse.

But I'm not going to be upset. No; I was upset last night after having a shitty day and while talking to my husband on the phone he said something that hurt my feelings. I was upset that I got my annual performance review and even though (on a 5-point scale) getting any 5's is impossible (and I'd have to walk on water), I was pissed that I deserved at least one 5 and did not get it. I don't toot my own horn often (not seriously anyway... I put on a pretty egotistical front just because) but I know I deserved a 5 on my people skills. The criteria for a 5 is to "consistently EXCEED expectations while also increasing productivity/profit of the store's performance". That's what I do. All the time. Not some of the time, not when I feel like it. But when I clock in, my gameface is on and I LIVE that description. Anyway, thinking about it makes me all pissed off again and will lead to more crying.... so let's move on.

It is the end of the month. Amy and I have a monthly recap to get to, and that might take a few days. The lucky lady is off camping and enjoying some quality family time and although she's around the web, I am letting her off the hook to get her update up until she gets back! :-)

So, I want to leave some words of wisdom for you to take in.

Practice it, every day. Take the time and do one thing you love to do. Take a walk, read a chapter in a book. Do a crossword puzzle. Call a loved one. Write a letter and MAIL it. Self love leads to loving others, and leads to brighter futures, and leads to success.



Isn't this the truth! In life, you will never learn the lesson before being given the test. Take what you can from the test, take the knowledge you gain, the high of success, or the humble of the defeat, and apply it to life. Make mistakes and learn from them, take in the lessons that life has to offer.


This week I want you all to take a look at a test your life recently put you through. Find the lesson to be learned, and apply it somewhere else in your life.

Have a good week everyone.

Sunday, July 27, 2014

Weekly Motivational #2

Happy Sunday Y'all!

How was your week? I stood still all week. My food choices are back on track (mostly) and I'm hoping to pick back up logging it soon to help me even more.

My fitness, on the other hand, not so much.

I make plans. I do. Big plans. I even have a cool calendar I made myself that has 7 columns for each day of the week and 5 rows so I can plan my week out.
Row 1: My work schedule
Row 2: Husband's work schedule
Row 3: Philosophy homework
Row 4: World History homework
Row 5: Gym/workout schedule

I have it color coded. I highlight my OFF days and make sure with homework I give myself OFF days, too. Husband's work schedule has been crazy lately, tomorrow he leaves for another week in Orlando but comes back and will work through the weekend on Saturday. My own schedule has been steady, but I am still working every damned weekend morning, so I have missed my favorite zumba class for 3 months now.
As for the gym schedule, well that is just for show apparently. I write down classes I want to take, or simply write in cardio/weights and which gym I should go to (there is one by my house and one by my work, so I truly have no excuses). And I just don't go. Why do that when I can be at home watching reruns of Grey's Anatomy? Hah. I haven't been to the gym more than twice this month.

So, my weekly motivational is pretty simple.....


Forget about what happened last week. Forget about July and what it brought you. Today. Today starts a BRAND NEW WEEK. For all of us! Start fresh with new motivation and renewed drive!

Today, be thankful. Today, make the right choices. Today, look at what your week is planned to be, and follow through!


That's all. Take this week, and OWN it. Be in control of your outcome!

Friday, July 18, 2014

Weekly Motivational #1

You know what happens every time, you get a new car and all of a sudden everyone else and their mother has the EXACT SAME CAR???!?!

They say pregnancy is like that too, but I wouldn't know about that one.

What I do know, is that I have felt the pains of failure in my fitness and food life lately, and it seems many of the women I follow in blog-land have too. July has been the month of set-backs and lost motivation, and we are all trying to dig our way out.

So, once a week (hopefully on Fridays), I am going to post a motivational blog. It might just be a picture, or a quote, or something I found on Pinterest. It may be a health article, or a recipe for something new, or maybe just a shout out to my own accomplishment for the week.

The point is, I lost my will to get fit, lost my willpower against my favorite foods (Yup, I ate 2 bags of cereal in less than 5 days. TWO.) But I see now that I'm not going to find that willpower anywhere but inside of myself. It's not on the shelf, not lost in my purse. It's not inside Amy, although she is a great reflection of my subconscious and that's a scary and yet comforting thought. (<3 U!)

My will to move on, move forward, and get back on track is within me. So, I expect tears of refusal and child-like tantrums of "I DON'T WANNA!!", but I also expect to "suck it up buttercup" and make the best of what I have. After all, I'm relatively young, healthy, and have the ability to control my outcome. And my outcome is a bikini. Or at least a flattering sundress!

So, in honor of the first Motivational....


Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Road Trip Review : June 2014

So, let's review..

-The distance from home to Crowley's Ridge National Park is 849 miles.
-The distance from there to Devil's Den State Park is 215 miles.
-My total goal distance is then 1,064 miles.
-Challenge runs from January 1st thru October 31st, which is 304 days.
-That means... I need to cover 3.5 miles per day to achieve my goal distance.
-Of that 3.5 miles, only half (1.75 miles) can come from my everyday normal walking!

The Road So Far.....

January
Goal: 108.5 miles
Distance: 79.79 miles
Deficit: -28.71 miles

February
Goal: 98 miles
Distance: 88.16 miles
Deficit: -9.84 miles

March
Goal: 108.5 miles
Distance: 111.34 miles
Deficit: +2.84 miles

April
Goal: 105 miles
Distance: 184.73 miles
Deficit: +79.73 miles

May
Goal: 108.50 miles
Distance: 77.11 miles
Deficit: -31.39 miles

June
Goal: 105 miles
Distance: 51.78 miles
Deficit: -53.22 miles

So.... we are now more than halfway to our end date. I am officially 40.59 miles behind and I only have 123 days left to do something. Actually, it's only 114 days. Oh boy.

I have stood by my decision to not let July get away from me. I have gone to the gym a couple of times, I have started a 21-day cardio kickstart with the Wii, and I haven't had but a few sodas. But, I am feeling like I have gotten myself off to a good start. I will continue to kick ass, I will continue to put myself and my health first, and I will zero out my deficit by the end of August.

For now, I leave you with some wisdom that we all need to remember...











Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Road Trip Review : May 2014 : A Month Too Little Too Late

Well... I guess it's better now than never, right? It has been a whirlwind month. School and the job have taken over my life and it seems like all of my days off are spent holed up in the office bent over my desk... I think I'm turning into Quasimodo!

I have also received some not so great news on the home-front. Nothing to be worried about for you guys! Nothing that can be stopped, or helped, or any other amount of "doing" will help. It has just been another falter in my steps and I have spent the month wallowing and self-loathing and not focusing on my health, but rather eating through my guilt and anger and letting the office chair be my comfort.

So, let's review..

-The distance from home to Crowley's Ridge National Park is 849 miles.
-The distance from there to Devil's Den State Park is 215 miles.
-My total goal distance is then 1,064 miles.
-Challenge runs from January 1st thru October 31st, which is 304 days.
-That means... I need to cover 3.5 miles per day to achieve my goal distance.
-Of that 3.5 miles, only half (1.75 miles) can come from my everyday normal walking!

The Road So Far.....

January
Goal: 108.5 miles
Distance: 79.79 miles
Deficit: -28.71 miles

February
Goal: 98 miles
Distance: 88.16 miles
Deficit: -9.84 miles

March
Goal: 108.5 miles
Distance: 111.34 miles
Deficit: +2.84 miles

April
Goal: 105 miles
Distance: 184.73 miles
Deficit: +79.73 miles

May
Goal: 108.50 miles
Distance: 77.11 miles
Deficit: -31.39 miles

OUCH.

It's no surprise that I am behind. Like the aforementioned issues.... I have been distracted. I have neglected my health, my fitness, my everything. I drive home most of days crying over this, that, the other thing, and sometimes for nor good reason. I keep telling myself it will get better as my schooling gets closer to a degree in my hand; but some days I feel like I am fumbling around in the dark and not bothering to feel around for a light switch.

I don't really have goals set in place, mostly because I kept pushing this update off and now there are only 6 days left on the month. I know I'll be behind again, but I will not let July get the better of me. My hardest class is behind me, I have my husband's birthday coming up, a dual party with him and my cousin happening around the 4th, and I am determined to get out there and start running again. I can't make the excuses anymore.

My head was so much clearer when I was exercising 4+ days of the week. I felt better, my life felt like it was in focus and in control.... Well, it's decided. July is my get-back-on-track month.